Here we are. Here I am- once again facing a job rejection. WOOOSSAHHHHHH Lauren. After graduating from my graduate program in May, I can no longer keep count of the number of jobs I've applied to. Applying amid COVID has been a nightmare, one that all of us in the job market can say collectively-have never experienced. I'm here to encourage you as I write to help myself, too-keep your head up!
Minus COVID, I've been here before. I've been in the space of presumed rejection from the job I thought I needed and wanted, the space of checking my email every hour on the hour praying that one of the fifty employers had responded- the space of depression. But guess what? I also made it out of that space before too! I told y'all, I'm encouraging myself because I have to lead that small voice of doubt where to turn before that cringy, dark cloud begins *trying* to find a home in me.
IT. WON'T. WORK!
I once had a blog (biscuit-n-honey) that saved me from depression. I had just graduated from Georgia Southern University (The Real GSU) and was living a life deferred, not denied, but delayed. I found myself living back at home and annoyed about that, my 21-year-old self had not yet come to understand that a life deferred is a moment in time and not the end of the road. Writing on that blog, sharing with others from my heart to theirs strengthened me for my next, and I can only imagine what this time in COVID will do for me in preparation for what's next!
DON'T GIVE IN & DEFINITELY DON'T GIVE UP!
Now, as a 28-year-old woman, having experienced life more, I've learned to let the NOs be what they are and to focus on MY YES. My yes to myself and God. Giving the "NOs" no power. Instead, I'll keep dancing to the beat of God's and my drum. I'm drumming along THIS time- writing, planting, laughing, and taking time to strengthen my skills and learning new ones too. Reading for leisure (thank you God) has been my fave and building the vision God gave me in LoveWell- cause maybe, just maybe, that's the plan for me anyhow.
No means no, but it ain't got nothing on favor!
Be well & love well,
At the intersection of faith and culture, I write what MY soul must consider, what MY mind needs to process, and what MY body must release!
The thoughts of LEB